Lagi-lagi..

Well first of all I do really hope the reader of my blog are not judgemental people.. Maksudnya judgemental kalo ngeliat isi blog ini kok keknya kitu2 wae. Hahhaa... yaudahlahyaaa...

So, anyway, at this very moment I GOT to be honest that I'm not really happy. Though I know my happiness is always in unstable state. Jadi detik ini sedih, sedetik kemudian hepi.. dst.. dst

I don't really understand this, but maybe I kinda have this personality or habit untuk mengasihani diri sendiri. Ohya kalo blom pada tau, saya ini punya kepribadian lain di diri saya, yang bisa kita sebut saja Miss Wise and Miss Idiot. Miss Wise really knows what is right and what is wrong. Dia pinter banget ngasi advice ke orang lain (sebut aja masta nya dunia persilatan) dan paliiiiing benci sama Miss Idiot yang ga pernah mau dengerin dia. Well sebenernya ga bener2 gamau dengerin sih. Miss Idiot bakal bilang "ooohh.. gitu yaa.. ngerti gue.. ngerti2... oke deh" lalu semenit kemudian dia lupa aja gituh sama kata2 Miss Wise dan bakal (lagi2) bertindak seenak udelnya (yang most of the time pasti salah!). Kalo kata Miss Idiot "yaudah sih inilah diri gue, dan gue gak nyaman aja kalo ngga bertindak sesuai hati gue". Udah gitu ni Miss Wise bakal bales "tolol lo! percuma gue ngasi tau lo sampe berjam2, berhari2 ampe berbusaaa juga lo masuk kuping kiri kluar kuping kanan. Daripada dengerin gue nihhh yang udah jelas bener, malah lo nanya kanan kiri lo. Which mungkin some of them bener juga kek gue, tapi most of them are definitely dumbass kek lo. Yaudahlahyaaa, terserah deh terseraah. Tapi kalo sakit ati, I just wanna say "I told you!""

Kira2 gitu gambaran pribadi saya, yang mungkin banyak orang lain juga merasakan hal yang sama.

The truth is, I can't really help it. Ngga bisa nahan diri untuk ga bertindak bodoh itu tadi. What was even worse, saya slalu kehilangan arah, denger si A, denger si B, dan ujung2nya berubah2 state of mind aja gitu sesuai masukan mereka.

Ah, entahlah..

Typical Break-Up

1. Delete Facebook atau unfollow social media lainnya
2. Delete nomer hp
3. Buang foto2 bareng, buang barang2 yang pernah dikasih (kecuali bener2 guna)
4. Pujian2 di depan temen brubah jadi cacian
5. dst.. *mikir dulu

Isn't it funny how you feel so close to someone and adore him/her that much and want to be next to them anytime and want to hear from them everyday and feel like you gonna miss something important if you pass the day without them, and next time you just want to do CTRL-Shift-Del to them?

Love is ironic and I'm still trying to understand this kind of irony. While doing this.. I kinda realize he doesn't have any social media (good baby, good ;p), and we still don't have any pic together. I think I'm being too safe for this matter now

Anyway, until next post ;)

Like this!

Recently did web surfing until I found interesting blog

I spotted on one of the article which basically says,

Recent studies confirm a fact that many people—particularly female comedians—have known for years. When women say they want a guy with a “sense of humor,” they mean they want a guy who makes them laugh. When men say they want a girl with a sense of humor, they want a girl who laughs at their jokes.

LOL

That Line

Saya ngga biasa baca kitab suci.. Pernah dulu pas masih sekolah, brusaha baca, tp susah :p
Dua minggu lalu denger bacaan di misa minggu pagi..
Dan saya suka..

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away

One time you think you love someone, look at that line and think again. R u sure?

Thought

Saya punya blog di jejaring lain yang udah amat ga keurus. Soale pada intinya dia sistemnya follow2an gitu, jadi males aja curcol dikit udah langsung dibaca orang.. hwehehe.. nah lagi buka2 blog lama eta trus nemu postingan sinis saya yang berikut:

WHY PEOPLE SHOULD GET MARRIED?
mau share pikiran yang melesat di benak saya akhir2 ini.. knapa si org harus nikah? kalo saya nanya gini, pasti tar ada yg nanya balik, “emang napa mnurut lo org ga ush nikah?”
banyak
1. saya ga percaya orang bakal seumur idup mencintai seorang lelaki atau seorang wanita saja. yah dulu sempet percaya, skarang keknya susah utk percaya.. ~halah
2. sebenernya alesan di atas udah mewakili smuanya sih„haha..
3. oke saya cari alesan lagi.. ada hal2 yg membuat saya yakin akan poin 1, karna kalo seseorang bertemu seseorang yg dia anggap pantas jadi suami ato istrinya, dia menikah saat itu. tapi dia gatau nantinya dia akan ketemu sapa, kan? dan keharusan untuk menetap pada suatu pasangan kayaknya gimanaa gt.
4. biasanya org gakan benar2 mengenal pasangannya sebelum menikah. nah ketika sudah, nantinya jelek2nya akan ketauan, dan itu akan bikin ilfeel. tapi, karna sudah menikah, terpaksa dijalankan seterusnya (bahkan seumur hidup)
yah, sebutlah saya kurang mendalami makna pernikahan. Tapi tetep aja skarang pikiran2 itu yg memenuhi otak saya. apalagi yg menyebalkan, di kantor cowo2 oke dah pada married (haha! jadi itu toh alasannya topik pembicaraan ini!)
smoga suatu hari saya bisa mengerti.. ato mungkin tidak :)

FYI itu tulisan tanggal 27 Juni 2010
Man.. do you notice how cynical I was at that time?
Part of me masi berpikiran yang sama dengan saya 3 tahun lalu itu.. But well, let's say.. now I'm not that cynical anymore.. I do think there're still some hope in marriage. Maybe not all marriage.. But who knows maybe that's yours?

As what someone always says to me "there are 6 billions of people in the world! there's always a chance for you to find someone different"