Just realized I hadn't updated my life for so many months... Many things happened.. Recently I was involved with two guys. Suddenly got a lot of attentions around February and March, but then everything fell apart. LOL. Still good friends with both of them though...
I also just had my 31st birthday. Can't believe I'm just getting older and older... I feel like I haven't been a very grateful person sometimes.
Just yesterday also got my first nephew! So now I'm a proud aunt of 1 girl and 1 boy... Though they will rarely ever see me. I'm soooo far awayyyy here by myself, which I guiltily feel happy about.
Been traveling so much this Summer and almost always going somewhere over the weekends.
Life is good and nothing to really complain about!
Monday, August 12, 2019
Saturday, March 16, 2019
Forgetting how to be grateful
This morning I woke up in a hotel room in LA, getting ready for my flight to Denver for a conference (slash) vacation. I haven't been back to Colorado since I graduated from my Masters (back in December 2017). So it's about a little bit more than a year.
All of sudden I was thinking, gosh... how come I forgot how grateful I should be for the life I have right now? I do remember very clearly how struggled I was when I was working on my Masters in Colorado... How I didn't have many friends, didn't have money, couldn't go out have fun cos.. again.. I don't have money or friends to enjoy my life. YET at that time I should've felt grateful. So many people want to be in my shoes at that time, going to grad school for free in a really really good school in the States.
Anyways... I'm writing this because I feel the need to constantly remind myself to focus on what I HAVE than what I don't have in my life. Cos what? Cos I will really remember all of these things once I lost it. And God forbid I'll lose this in my life. I really don't want to go back to the struggling life without certainties and securities.
Now I can travel whenever I want to... where ever I wanna go to... I can buy whatever I feel like buying (in moderation of course). I sleep on a very comfortable bed and do not need to share my space with anyone for the sake of cutting expense. I have many friends (tho I also lost some) that are very good friends and we share a lot of enjoyable memories and stories together. I still have family who love me back in Indonesia (tho, yes, I'm a pretty cold daughter *still*).
This cycle always happened, tho. I get comfortable. I have everything I need (more or less), and I start questioning if I'm happy enough. If I have accomplished enough. If there'a anything else I'm missing and if I'm gonna be miserable without that thing to complete my life.
I need to remember not to be too hard on my own self. I have achieved a lot. God has been very very very kind to me. I have to be very grateful for all the things I have right now.
And the quote that just reminded me of that too: "remember the days you prayed for the things you have now".
Yes. Indeed.
All of sudden I was thinking, gosh... how come I forgot how grateful I should be for the life I have right now? I do remember very clearly how struggled I was when I was working on my Masters in Colorado... How I didn't have many friends, didn't have money, couldn't go out have fun cos.. again.. I don't have money or friends to enjoy my life. YET at that time I should've felt grateful. So many people want to be in my shoes at that time, going to grad school for free in a really really good school in the States.
Anyways... I'm writing this because I feel the need to constantly remind myself to focus on what I HAVE than what I don't have in my life. Cos what? Cos I will really remember all of these things once I lost it. And God forbid I'll lose this in my life. I really don't want to go back to the struggling life without certainties and securities.
Now I can travel whenever I want to... where ever I wanna go to... I can buy whatever I feel like buying (in moderation of course). I sleep on a very comfortable bed and do not need to share my space with anyone for the sake of cutting expense. I have many friends (tho I also lost some) that are very good friends and we share a lot of enjoyable memories and stories together. I still have family who love me back in Indonesia (tho, yes, I'm a pretty cold daughter *still*).
This cycle always happened, tho. I get comfortable. I have everything I need (more or less), and I start questioning if I'm happy enough. If I have accomplished enough. If there'a anything else I'm missing and if I'm gonna be miserable without that thing to complete my life.
I need to remember not to be too hard on my own self. I have achieved a lot. God has been very very very kind to me. I have to be very grateful for all the things I have right now.
And the quote that just reminded me of that too: "remember the days you prayed for the things you have now".
Yes. Indeed.
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