Happiness

Something bothered me lately bout this topic. I think, sometimes people would define happiness (that they think of) for others. Do u get my point here? Sometimes people would feel sorry about others who did not do, or achieve, or experience the same things as theirs. And sometimes I wonder, who can really define my happiness if not myself?

Some people would think an achievement of happiness is when they are settle. Have job, have someone they are engaged to- particularly someone who's settle also. Have kids. Have house, or houses. Have their own business, so on, so on.

Some would think that is pathetic. Especially in young age. "Who would want a settle life in that early stage of life?", they said. "you haven't seen enough of this world and u already settled in?"

Doesn't that confuse you? So, am I happy now? Some would think my life is fantastic. Some would think, nah, it's not enough. You're being too safe. Some would say, you have a perfect life-but... u miss something WE THINK you need to have. And so on, and so on.

Honestly, I'm so jealous of people who can really define their own happiness without letting em affected by others' opinion. I would love to tell those people WHO THINK they know better what is good for me: Fck off and live your own pathetic life. Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry with anyone right now. I'm just, confused.

So then now I start listing my own "happy-list". What truly makes me happy?
- I'm happy when I travel and see new things
- I'm happy when my boss think I did a great job and hand me even more serious tasks to do
- I'm happy when I get my spa package
- I'm happy when I get to shop cute things
- I'm happy when I spend time with my lovely guy
- I'm happy when I eat something really good
- I'm happy when I get to watch new movies and it's awesome
- I'm happy when I see myself in a mirror and think "I'm not that bad afterall"
- I'm even happy enough when I only sit on my couch and watch serial. At least that what makes me comfortable
- I'm happy when I meet my old friends and trade funny stories
- I'm happy when I get my salary paid

and so on

I must admit sometimes I'm happy bout something because people defined it as some achievements. Oh how I wish I did not live in this such judgmental community, how I could truly define my own happiness..

Cause in the end of the day, would they care? They talk, even when they do not care..