I'm a Hybrid

I just realized I have always been one. Mulai dari kehidupan sekolah, kuliah, sampai sekarang kerja. It's not that it's something special, though somehow sometimes I'm kinda proud of it. At least I consider myself more open-minded. Though inside still judgmental yah... Yak yuk :p

Mulai dari background gw yang terlahir campuran. Bukan, bukan setengah bule kok ;p *ngarep itu sik*
I'm half Chinese from my dad and Manadonese from my mom. Dari kecil gw udah sekolah di sekolah katolik, yang mana mayoritas ya isinya anak-anak keturunan Cina, yang mana pada rasis juga. Tapi gw selalu berusaha blended in, gamau jadi objek rasisme itu. Kalo bisa ya jadi subjeknya, hahaha... Kasi bocoran aja ya.. Kalau di sekolah yang mayoritas isinya anak-anak Cina itu, kita pada suka rasis sama yang bukan Cina. We called them (the non-Chinese ones), Wana. Artinya kalau ngga salah sih, pribumi. Disingkat jadi 1A (one-a). Jadi kalau mau ngomongin di belakang, semacam seperti "dia kan 1A... iya ya...blabla..."
Oke jadi gw udah ngaku dosa soal hal itu ya.. Hehehe...

Lulus SMA gw masuk perguruan tinggi negri, yang udah diwanti-wanti sama bokap supaya gw ngga kaget nantinya sama lingkungan yang berbeda. Overall di sekolah negri ya lebih general komunitasnya. Dari yang ga punya sampe yang kaya banget juga ada. Dari yang alim banget sampe nakal banget ada. Dan pastinya yang namanya keturunan Chinese itu malah minoritas instead of mayoritas. Oh iya satu lagi, udah mah gw minoritas, agama gw juga minoritas. Nah! Ini yang beda banget sih. Kalo di jaman sekolah yang pada puasa harus nontonin yang ngga puasa pada makan, kalo pas kuliah yang ngga puasa harus sembunyi2 makannya. Kalau sebelumnya gw ngerasa sebagai kalangan mayoritas, di saat kuliah gw berasa minoritas banget. Ngga jarang temen-temen ada yang becanda ngomong "udah deh Shel, gw ajarin syahadat sekarang aja ya :D". Belum lagi ketemu dengan beberapa yang termasuk kalangan fanatik sempit. Gw langsung mikir, oh.. gini ya rasanya kalo jadi minoritas di sekolah gw yang sebelumnya. Which is still OK.

Talking about blended in, selama kuliah gw jadi merasa part of the "pribumi community" ini. Kalo sebelumnya ngeledekin "1A" di belakang, sekarang ikutan anak-anak becandain yang matanya sipit-sipit. Hehehehe... *peace ah*
Ada untungnya juga lahir "campuran", jadi kalo pada ngeledekin "lah lo pan Cina juga", jawabnya "gw Manado kali.."

Sekarang udah mulai kerja, I live in a two-sides of the world again. Apalagi namanya tinggal di Jakarta, yang ternyata, wow, wow aja deh pokonya. If you have the chance to reaalllyy live in this Jakarta, live the life, it's kinda awesome. Just be careful not to get dragged too deep into it.

I have colleagues friends who are soo so well behaved type of people. Need to be careful when talk to them about things cos they might judge you. Tipikal orang-orang yang married early 20s, have kids, have job, have their own house, etc.

Also I have "hanging out" friends who are so "party animals" kind of people. Some of them are so liberal that makes you think they are the "Sex in the City" type of people in the real world. But it doesn't mean I have to be like them. I'm just, I repeat, more open-minded. Life have to be balance at some point or you will end up craving for other's lives (and try to cover it up by judging them).

On the other side I have a family who are more into religious type of people. LOL. Diversity huh?

As the summary, office friends make me thinking more about my future, party friends make me loosen up more and enjoying my life, and family keeps me down to earth and still remember about my Creator.

Oh I almost forgot about my childhood bestfriends who will always be there for me. They are not too conservative or liberal. They are just as open minded as me. More to the "anak baik baik" side though. The only thing I know about them is, when life gets harder than I thought, it is to them I will eventually talk.

Afterall life is beautiful. You just need to live it to the fullest and keep being grateful about it :)