Possibilities

Life is a bunch of possibilities that will lead you to another shape of the future. You wouldn't know which will eventually happen to your life. You have options, preferences, and you have Him who will decide which one is best for you.

I'm in the middle of those significant possibilities, soon.

I'm not sure at all of what my life is going to be in, umm, 4-5 months from now. Options are between: going to Balikpapan, stay here in Jakarta, or go to school again.
If you ask me, my preference would be the third option, no doubt bout that. But what if I didn't get admitted to the school?

To be honest, I don't want to go to Balikpapan. And my bosses here want to make me stay in Jakarta.

Then why are you going there?

I know, right. Silly me. LOL. I wanted to go there previously cos I thought I would learn something else, totally different from what I've been doing here. Get more experience, more exposure. So that's what happened. I got caught up in the middle of options which I didn't know for sure either, which one is the best for me. This person told me to go to here, this person told me to stay.

The thought of leaving Jakarta is quite painful. So many people here whom I care about. So many activities that I know I'd miss when I moved out from here.

But then, you can't always be in your comfort zone.

You know what is the real problem here? My idealism.

Anyways,
hopefully whatever happens, it will be what's best for me. The industry is not going any better soon either. Just be thankful I still have the job at the moment :)

Hallelujah!