Breathe Again...

This post might sound like a bragging, but well... nobody is really expected to read this anyway. LOL.
You know sometimes I realize people think that I brag a lot about my life, but the truth is, so many things I tried not to brag about. Compare to some friends that I know, I am very sure if they were me, they would BRAG LIKE CRAAZEEEHH... So yea, actually whatever I posted, it has been kept as down-to-earth as possible. LOL.

I just think that when you are down, nobody really gives a fuck about your sad life. I mean, they do give a fuck, but like a "laughing fuck", you know? People like to listen to other people complaints about their life, not because they care about making you feel better, but because they like to know that nobody is truly happy in this life.

Long story short, I just finally can breathe again after 2 years of poverty. If you follow my blog then you'd know that I don't always brag about how lucky I am, but there are some down times when I barely had money at all and pretty struggling with my life here. To be honest, I still am not completely HAPPY being here, remembering there is almost no good friends around me that I can rely on. Oh well, I do have a good friend here, but she is married with a kid, so it's not totally the same as having a best friend that have the same kind of life as you (single and mingle). But, better than not at all obviously! But then now I am at Bakersfield, all by myseeelllfff...... (Nyanyik). I have a roommate that I thought would be a perfect companion during my Summer here, because she is a geologist (close enough) and she is a Catholic too, so we kinda have the same ideology. LOL. Not like we talk about that at all, though. We don't. We just go to church together, that's it. Sometimes during the weekdays we don't talk at all. Just say HI in the morning and GOOD NIGHT and BYE. Hahaha... pretty awkward, but whatever.

Other than that, I sometimes feel pretty lonely, remembering that I have some good friends back in Jakarta that I can always depend on whenever I want to watch movie with, drink with, shopping with, eating with, or anything, really.

Oh back to coming back from poverty. I know life will not always be this easy, but currently I'm happy I can do whatever I want to do. Crave for some food? Just go and eat at that place. Want to get my nails done at the salon? I can. Want to drink with some friends? (other interns) I can. Want to shop for clothes/shoes? I can. TWO fricking years I was sooooo out of money that I really couldn't get anything I wanted. Oh well, pretty traumatizing! I still don't know though if money is really all the answer, cause I was still happy at that time, cause I had my BF *aww*.

Well, talking about him, I'm going to see him in 2 weeks. I know. Either stupid, or stupid. That's me. He is pretty much my source of happiness and consolation, though.