Update + making friends

Hello hello... it has been a little over a month since I started my new life in Bakersfield... One positive thing in my life is: dude I just keep on making money. Like... seriously. It's only been a month and I already make something that would take me 4 years in Indonesia. LOL. Thanks to sign-on bonus and tax returns I just got. It may sound exaggerated, but it is pretty comparable to what I had in my savings when I left Indonesia. Andd... to be noted, that money I saved during 4.5 yr work in Indonesia also already done... finished. Cos I had to use it when I needed money for my life during school time. Plus, all the gold bars that I bought, already sold everything. I was that broke, man..

It's pretty funny and true when people said that wealth and money is very temporary. It can come and go anytime. But my finance has been pretty good lately. I didn't even need to touch any of my pension  money from Indonesia (when I left CVX). Anndd... my apartment in Jakarta keeps on getting new renters. Pretty awesome.

Should sound like a perfect life, huh?

Well.. not so much, cos ain't nobody has a perfect life. Or actually.... it depends on how you look at it. Haha.. It may be that I'm just an ungrateful person, impatient, you name it. One thing that I'd been struggling since I came to the US is the thing about making friends. Dude it was already hard in Colorado. I did have friends that I could have lunch with and such. But... I didn't really have friends I could go shopping with, go to salon with, had deep conversation or even the most ridiculous conversation ever, etc. But at least they were friends... I went eating with them. YET I still complained during that time, remember?!

You know what... It is pretty much worse now. Much more worse hahahaha.... During the Summer I was in Bako, I had my intern friends which I hung out with at least once a week. That was pretty satisfying. But now those intern friends are not all getting hired by the company. And those who ended up getting hired, were pretty shitty friends lol. I actually tried to ask em to hangout and I was just being ignored. What about co-workers? Well... everybody but one person are married guys. I'm not even joking. You don't want to hangout with bunch of married guys, especially when you're single. And live in a small city. LOL. Now I actually realize something about myself. I REALLY NEED FRIENDS.
There was a time in Indonesia (specifically in Jakarta) when I kinda felt lonely, but I didn't care that much, cos I always had friends. I could always hang out anytime I wanted to. I was just picky, you know. Snobby me. Well... I think God plays with me now. "Girl now you need to feel how it's like when you are the one that have to work to make friends." Oh.My.Gawd. I completely need to get out of my comfort zone. Need to be more friendly with people. Putting my self "out there". Be more kind. More patient. Less sensitive. Try to be OK with some type of rejections. Not like obvious rejections. But you know how it feels like, when people are not really wanting to hang out with you that much. You know.

I think there is a really fine line in making friends in your late 20s, and above that age. Like... you need to be friendly enough and open to anyone. And like... casual... not too self conscious or shy or socially awkward. But also, need to be so aware if you're being too forward, or clingy, or needy. Cos nobody likes that type of people to befriend with, especially during the early stage of friendship. Gosh I totally remember the time I WAS the person who felt like people had been trying too much to be my friend. HAHAHAHA... AND I TOOK THEM FOR GRANTED.

Again.. this is Karma, dude.

Oh well... at least I now learn something about myself, and at least I can grow more as a person (hopefully).
And let's not forget that I can always buy anything I want at the moment. THANK YOU GOD, sincerely. Seriously. At least one thing to not worry about in life.