Forgetting how to be grateful

This morning I woke up in a hotel room in LA, getting ready for my flight to Denver for a conference (slash) vacation. I haven't been back to Colorado since I graduated from my Masters (back in December 2017). So it's about a little bit more than a year.
All of sudden I was thinking, gosh... how come I forgot how grateful I should be for the life I have right now? I do remember very clearly how struggled I was when I was working on my Masters in Colorado... How I didn't have many friends, didn't have money, couldn't go out have fun cos.. again.. I don't have money or friends to enjoy my life. YET at that time I should've felt grateful. So many people want to be in my shoes at that time, going to grad school for free in a really really good school in the States.

Anyways... I'm writing this because I feel the need to constantly remind myself to focus on what I HAVE than what I don't have in my life. Cos what? Cos I will really remember all of these things once I lost it. And God forbid I'll lose this in my life. I really don't want to go back to the struggling life without certainties and securities.

Now I can travel whenever I want to... where ever I wanna go to... I can buy whatever I feel like buying (in moderation of course). I sleep on a very comfortable bed and do not need to share my space with anyone for the sake of cutting expense. I have many friends (tho I also lost some) that are very good friends and we share a lot of enjoyable memories and stories together. I still have family who love me back in Indonesia (tho, yes, I'm a pretty cold daughter *still*).

This cycle always happened, tho. I get comfortable. I have everything I need (more or less), and I start questioning if I'm happy enough. If I have accomplished enough. If there'a anything else I'm missing and if I'm gonna be miserable without that thing to complete my life.
I need to remember not to be too hard on my own self. I have achieved a lot. God has been very very very kind to me. I have to be very grateful for all the things I have right now.

And the quote that just reminded me of that too: "remember the days you prayed for the things you have now".

Yes. Indeed.