Typical Break-Up

1. Delete Facebook atau unfollow social media lainnya
2. Delete nomer hp
3. Buang foto2 bareng, buang barang2 yang pernah dikasih (kecuali bener2 guna)
4. Pujian2 di depan temen brubah jadi cacian
5. dst.. *mikir dulu

Isn't it funny how you feel so close to someone and adore him/her that much and want to be next to them anytime and want to hear from them everyday and feel like you gonna miss something important if you pass the day without them, and next time you just want to do CTRL-Shift-Del to them?

Love is ironic and I'm still trying to understand this kind of irony. While doing this.. I kinda realize he doesn't have any social media (good baby, good ;p), and we still don't have any pic together. I think I'm being too safe for this matter now

Anyway, until next post ;)

Like this!

Recently did web surfing until I found interesting blog

I spotted on one of the article which basically says,

Recent studies confirm a fact that many people—particularly female comedians—have known for years. When women say they want a guy with a “sense of humor,” they mean they want a guy who makes them laugh. When men say they want a girl with a sense of humor, they want a girl who laughs at their jokes.

LOL

That Line

Saya ngga biasa baca kitab suci.. Pernah dulu pas masih sekolah, brusaha baca, tp susah :p
Dua minggu lalu denger bacaan di misa minggu pagi..
Dan saya suka..

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away

One time you think you love someone, look at that line and think again. R u sure?

Thought

Saya punya blog di jejaring lain yang udah amat ga keurus. Soale pada intinya dia sistemnya follow2an gitu, jadi males aja curcol dikit udah langsung dibaca orang.. hwehehe.. nah lagi buka2 blog lama eta trus nemu postingan sinis saya yang berikut:

WHY PEOPLE SHOULD GET MARRIED?
mau share pikiran yang melesat di benak saya akhir2 ini.. knapa si org harus nikah? kalo saya nanya gini, pasti tar ada yg nanya balik, “emang napa mnurut lo org ga ush nikah?”
banyak
1. saya ga percaya orang bakal seumur idup mencintai seorang lelaki atau seorang wanita saja. yah dulu sempet percaya, skarang keknya susah utk percaya.. ~halah
2. sebenernya alesan di atas udah mewakili smuanya sih„haha..
3. oke saya cari alesan lagi.. ada hal2 yg membuat saya yakin akan poin 1, karna kalo seseorang bertemu seseorang yg dia anggap pantas jadi suami ato istrinya, dia menikah saat itu. tapi dia gatau nantinya dia akan ketemu sapa, kan? dan keharusan untuk menetap pada suatu pasangan kayaknya gimanaa gt.
4. biasanya org gakan benar2 mengenal pasangannya sebelum menikah. nah ketika sudah, nantinya jelek2nya akan ketauan, dan itu akan bikin ilfeel. tapi, karna sudah menikah, terpaksa dijalankan seterusnya (bahkan seumur hidup)
yah, sebutlah saya kurang mendalami makna pernikahan. Tapi tetep aja skarang pikiran2 itu yg memenuhi otak saya. apalagi yg menyebalkan, di kantor cowo2 oke dah pada married (haha! jadi itu toh alasannya topik pembicaraan ini!)
smoga suatu hari saya bisa mengerti.. ato mungkin tidak :)

FYI itu tulisan tanggal 27 Juni 2010
Man.. do you notice how cynical I was at that time?
Part of me masi berpikiran yang sama dengan saya 3 tahun lalu itu.. But well, let's say.. now I'm not that cynical anymore.. I do think there're still some hope in marriage. Maybe not all marriage.. But who knows maybe that's yours?

As what someone always says to me "there are 6 billions of people in the world! there's always a chance for you to find someone different"

This (Silly) Morning

S: Babe
H: Yes. Pagi
S: Pagi. U didn't reply my txt
H: Don't be mad. In-intentional.
     Un-intentional. Damn the autocorrect
S: So how was it
H: Fun. I need nights like this. Guys night. Lol
S: Glad u had fun. So did u have enough sleep?
.....
(10 min...)
.....
(20 min...)
..... *telpon ngga ya.. biasanya jam segini udah berangkat
..... *ah ntar aja deh, 5 menit lagi.. ato 10 menit lagi...
(10 min...)
..... (akhirnya nelpon juga... no answer...)
..... (nyampe kantor, blom ada balesan. Buka whatsapp, orangnya online)

S: Yoohoo
H: Hi
S: Can I call
..... (blom dijawab langsung nelpon lagi.... no answer... pikiran udah kmana2, ini knapa ngga diangkat, jangan2 kmaren pas kumpul sama temen2 cowo trus jd males ma gue.. mungkin sebel dimesej mulu.. sebel ditelp mulu.. dst..dst..dst...)

S: Alright
    R u that busy to pick up the phone
H: No. But u called at the wrong time

(riing...ring..akhirnya dia nelpon balik)
H: I was running late.. and I was scrambeled "should I pick up now, should I not" cause one time u called I was putting on my shoes. And I started scrambeled "man..what is she thinking now"
S: Cause u didnt reply since last night! and I was like..OK.. but this morning also u didnt reply
H: U said ur home, and I said "cool", what else? did u say anything else
S: Yea I said "r u having fun"
H: Well..Way to start the Monday
S: (laughing) Sorry..
H: No worries.. well.. will see u later today
S: this is so funny.. OK then

(click..)

On whatsapp Text
S: Lol. I feel silly now
H: Don't
S: Really do. Anyway enjoy ur day
H: Just wanted to let u know that I was not ignoring u. Or anything else :)
    I was not trying to make u feel silly.
    Don't
    Please don't
    Then I'll feel awful
S: Ahaha.. OK :) I really have to practice more on this. Lol



So that's my silly morning. Man... I'm so embarrassed.. 4 fricking months and I still don't trust him. Maybe I'm just always this crazy. Crap *getok jidat sndiri

Note to Myself

Pernah denger dari seseorang klo sebenernya segala permasalahan yang ada di hidup kita itu, kita tau jawabannya. Tapi teteeep curhat ke orang untuk "mencari" jawaban.

Makanya pernah ngerasa kan, "kok kalo gw ngasi jawaban atas permasalahan orang. gw jadi ngerasa expert banget ya?!

Oleh karena saya ini adalah orang yang dikit2 galau dan "seeking for reassurance", saya mau nitip beberapa catatan untuk DIRI SAYA sendiri ;p

1. Patience is number one
2. Be happy without any dependency to others. No one responsible for your happiness but yourself
3. Take things SLOW. Do you see any "too much" people who end up well? They all screwed it at the end!
4. Believe in yourself. Without TRUST, all of those things are useless.I repeat, USELESS
5. If it's meant to be, it will. Let it work naturally, don't push it.
6. You'll do it extremely well when you do all of those things above.  ;)

Am I crazy for doing this? LOL. I supposed so.

Resolusi? Anyone?

Udah ampir tengah Januari dan baru mau nulis resolusi? Apaah?

Hemm.. Jadi setelah saya pikir2, saya gamau resolusi macem2 yang nantinya ngga kesampean.. Jadinya, kira2 "bayangan"nya aja mau kayak gimana *ya apa bedanya

Kira-kira saya mikir taun 2013 ini saya HARUS dan WAJIB belajar 1 bahasa lagi slain Inggris. Awalnya sih mikir mo blajar Spanish karna keknya gampang. Tapi oh tapi, mengingat si doski bisa bahasa Prancis, dan saya takut nantinya dia ngomongin saya di blakang pake Frongseh, jadi keknya saya blajar bhs Prancis aja deh. Bihihi.. Lagian romantis gitu ngga sih kalo kita mo ngomong private trus switch ke Prancis (mnurut lo aja keknya Shel)

Intinya sih saya pengen bisa bahasa lain. Inggris keknya udah biasa. *tsah

Resolusi lain, eh.. Bayangan lain maksudnya, saya pengen mikirin rencana s2 saya lagi (cuma sampe tahap mikirin). Ini gara2 beberapa orang masih suka nanyain, yang membuat saya terbata2 menjawabnya. Haduh gatau deh..

Lalu lalu.. mo apalagi ya.. Terus terang nih akhir2 ini saya kok ngga seberapa "eager" dengan karir saya ya.. Ini gawat kayaknya sih. Kalo kata orang "once lo udah punya bayi, lo bakal ngga sgitu ambisinya sama karir lo"
Nah ini gw belom punya bayi kok. Suami juga belom. "Baru" punya pacar doank udah ngga semangat kerja gini. Ckck payahnya T_T

Well.. kalo taun ini juga saya ga semangat2 amat ngerencanain liburan kayak taun lalu. Masalahnya, kapan nabungnya buu? Ada rencana liburan kecil2an sama si dia. Tapi entahlah.. Gamau banyak berharap trus ntar ga jadi *pdhal tetep ngarep banget

Apalagi ya resolusi lainnya? Kok feeling saya 2013 ini bakal jadi tahun yang sulit yah. Hehehe,, smoga sgalanya lancar :') Semoga