The Process

So my preparation to (finally) go to school (again) is about 80% already.
I can't really say I really am going to go cause I still haven't got the visa on my hand. Well, it is still about 4 months from now anyway.

But by now I already finish up all credentials ( though every shipment of my document costs me around $60, sigh!), I told my bosses already (and surprisingly they're really supportive, so far. Well, they should, afterall I didn't ask any money from them to pay for my school).

I would really like to write about the process of me getting admitted and all of the stuffs happened, but again, cos it is only 80%, I'm afraid I will jinx it somehow :P

But I think I can just write briefly about it.

So I have always been thinking bout going back to school, but the time when I reaaallly did something was just last August 2014. That was when I finally took IELTS test. I thought, just take it anyway. Whether I'm gonna apply or not. And later in November 2014, I took the GRE.
Did I do any preparation classes for that? No. I did take IELTS course when I just graduated from ITB back in 2010 (basically cos I was jobless too for couple months), but that was it. I bought the GRE preparation book at the same year, never touched it until couple months before my GRE test.

I was almost taking the GRE preparation class, but it was around 5 million rupiah for 12 sessions. Each session will take around 3 hours. Either attend the class after work (7-10 p.m), or take it on weekend. (like, seriously?)
Knowing myself too well, I decided to just wing it. No preparation class, just do the exercises on the book.
Basically GRE is some kind of "ujian kesetaraan" for people applying to graduate school in the U.S (mainly). Usually schools in Europe won't ask for it. So the test consists of 3 main parts. Quantitative, Verbal, and Analytical Writing. I can say that I enjoy Math, so I focused on the quantitative exercises. Verbal exercise was basically hopeless. Even the American Native won't get a good score at this, so why bother trying. LOL.

In the end I got the result as what I expected. Quantitative was good, verbal sucks, analytical writing was so so. I told the professor of the school about my score and he was OK with that. I think he was more interested in my experience rather than that. But well, I'm not sure.

Anyway, back in December when I got the IELTS and GRE scores on my hand, I was still debating if I should apply or not. Cos of I decided to apply, I have to be really serious about it. Like commit certain amount of money to pay the application fee, shipment, etc. And ask for recommendation, etc.  More over, I was thinking that I only got 4 yrs of experience, why not waiting until 5 years, when I can save more money..

So I was talking to this guy at the office. He is an expat, graduated from Texas A&M. When I told him bout my "plan" to go to school again, he was excited and really encouraged me to go. But later when I was in doubt, I told him, err...maybe I'll just wait another year. 5 years sounds better for me, I said.

One thing he told me that really changed my thought at that time
"If you wait another year, I think you won't be applying at all. U don't know what will happen in a year. Say you meet a guy, or something. "

I immediately emailed the professor that night. LOL.

Annnddd... the rest is as what I wrote on this blog earlier. Or maybe I will write more about it on the next posts.
But the main point I would like to highlight from this post is, there is no such thing as "impossible" or "too much work/efforts to do".

As long as u want it so bad, and u're willing to work on it, believe in it,
You will get it.