Growing Up

You know..
Growing up turns out to be not that easy. Though it's still something we have to get through eventually.
It is in its disguise. You don't realize you are already trapped in the process.
Suddenly you live by your self.
Make your own money.
Have your own place.
Pay your own bills.
Arrange all of the things by your self, you have your own responsibility, of yourself.

And when you realize, you think, "hey, is it what they call growing-up? It is not that bad.. not easy too , though.

And there is that phase when you are able to control yourself more. You learn by making mistakes.
Part of the things that grown-up or adults usually say, you aren't going to listen to people when they tell you not to do things.
You will still do it.
And later, you find out that what they have been telling you, is true.
And THAT is when you learn not to do that again in the future.

And about self-control. I think I could get promoted to the next level of it.
I can now influence my own thoughts.
I can say, "no, Sheila, that's not important".
I will still think about it though,
but myself will no longer loose control to then do something I will regret.

Well, maybe.

Or maybe just because I'm busy bout something else.