While I'm writing this, this is the first day of Ramadhan, the first day where there's no food around the office like usual (biasanya tiap menit adaaa aja makanan ini dan itu). The first day we gonna suffer from even worse traffic (biasanya udah parah, well.. double that).
And it is less than 2 months for me to leave for Colorado.
It will feel less than that even, maybe, since after Ramadhan people will mudik for +- 2weeks (including me actually). So by the time I came back from vacation, I will take another weekend gateaway to do my farewell dive, and one week space to do farewell to friends (mainly the office friends), and then.. buhbye :)
By now I almost completed everything. Last night I just made sure that the last important document (which is my health and immunization record) has been received by the school. Quite a funny experience for me. So I emailed the school asking whether they have received my document and they didn't reply. It was suggested on the website that I call their number and they will be available most of the time.
Well remembering the time zone difference, I planned to call at 9pm or later, and I checked on telkomsel, how much does the international cost, etc.
So apparently telkomsel has a good deal. It is Rp 3500/10 minutes. I bought the first 10 min only to think later that I'm afraid 10min won't be enough. So I bought another 10min of call credit.
I rang the health officer:
O: CSM health and blablabla (I forgot), this is Denise speaking
me: Hi Denise, I'm an international student from Indonesia. I just sent my document on 15th of June and I want to make sure that it has been received
O: what is your student number?
me: it is xxxxxxxxxx
O: and your last name?
me: harryandi. H, A, R, R, Y, A, N, D, I
O: OK it's received. Thanks Sheila
me: Oh OK thank you
(tut tut tut....)
one minute only :|
what a waste, buying 20 minutes of international call credit! LOL
I guess I'm just very used to the complicated-ness of Indonesian people.
So anyway, right now I'm just thinking how bad I wanna get out of this city (remembering the traffic nightmare - Oh- I had enough of it!)
And some small group of people (I wrote about this before, yea that party friends of mine) just made me wanna move earlier than ever.
But of course there are more people that I will leave that I really care about as much as they care about me. Sigh. Hopefully I won't cry on my farewell day! Hahaha...
Aannnd, I conclude that I will bring more food than clothes! Afterall that would be my biggest struggle there :(
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
Some conversation
I talked to this friend of mine, at work. He's been one of the most supportive friends so far. He always asked me bout my updates, am I doing well, etc. Sometimes he's more like a father at work. LOL
Anyways, I asked him last time
"why do you always look happy? It looks as if you don't have any problem in your life"
"of course I do. But I always think of the future. And what I do now will affect my future. That's what I'm focusing on. There's nothing I can change of my past, it's over. And many people are still stuck in their past"
"umm.. yea that's true"
"People do mistakes. But that's how they learn. You cannot do exactly the same things, and expect different outcomes."
Nice words, fella. Nice words.
Anyways, I asked him last time
"why do you always look happy? It looks as if you don't have any problem in your life"
"of course I do. But I always think of the future. And what I do now will affect my future. That's what I'm focusing on. There's nothing I can change of my past, it's over. And many people are still stuck in their past"
"umm.. yea that's true"
"People do mistakes. But that's how they learn. You cannot do exactly the same things, and expect different outcomes."
Nice words, fella. Nice words.
Sunday, June 7, 2015
Double Standard
Last night I was thinking bout this topic. No no, it's not about feminism. But it's more about our personal double standard.
Like, when someone did something not nice, you will despise them. But then one day you found yourself, did EXACTLY the same thing. How do you feel about that?
I feel I kinda make justification bout what I did. Yep. So you know now, when in life you kinda question people , "WHY? WHY? Don't they have heart? " you know what is the answer. Cos basically we are human. We do what we want to do. Of course, some of us have stronger boundaries or principal more than the others. But yea that's the main point.
So what you should do when someone do bad things to you? Just be calm and think "oh well that's human. And this is life" ?
A friend of mine just said something like, "well you can't guarantee someone wouldn't change. I think the answer will be, deal with the pain"
I said, "you are totally right".
We can only put so much effort, and be prepared for anything out of our plan.
It will be sucks, of course. But, well, isn't that life?
I will put one quote from the movie I watched recently,
"I'd been let down in my life so many times. Why should I have gotten my hopes up, right?"
Like, when someone did something not nice, you will despise them. But then one day you found yourself, did EXACTLY the same thing. How do you feel about that?
I feel I kinda make justification bout what I did. Yep. So you know now, when in life you kinda question people , "WHY? WHY? Don't they have heart? " you know what is the answer. Cos basically we are human. We do what we want to do. Of course, some of us have stronger boundaries or principal more than the others. But yea that's the main point.
So what you should do when someone do bad things to you? Just be calm and think "oh well that's human. And this is life" ?
A friend of mine just said something like, "well you can't guarantee someone wouldn't change. I think the answer will be, deal with the pain"
I said, "you are totally right".
We can only put so much effort, and be prepared for anything out of our plan.
It will be sucks, of course. But, well, isn't that life?
I will put one quote from the movie I watched recently,
"I'd been let down in my life so many times. Why should I have gotten my hopes up, right?"
Sunday, May 24, 2015
Do not give a sh*t
If you ever think bout it more, it's the hardest thing you could ever do, is to not giving a shit bout something.
And the more u think, "I don't care", the more actually u gonna care. LOL. How shitty is that?
Sometimes I wish (or everybody wish) I could control my mind. I could shut some particular things down and turn it on again another time when I feel like thinking bout it.
How nice could it be?
But again, nothing occurs in this world means nothing. Things happen for a reason, that's what people always say. If you always get what you want, then why bother working on something? Why bother put efforts on something?
You wouldn't feel disappointed, but you wouldn't know how it is to be satisfied, either.
And the more u think, "I don't care", the more actually u gonna care. LOL. How shitty is that?
Sometimes I wish (or everybody wish) I could control my mind. I could shut some particular things down and turn it on again another time when I feel like thinking bout it.
How nice could it be?
But again, nothing occurs in this world means nothing. Things happen for a reason, that's what people always say. If you always get what you want, then why bother working on something? Why bother put efforts on something?
You wouldn't feel disappointed, but you wouldn't know how it is to be satisfied, either.
Thursday, May 14, 2015
The Process (Part 2)
So for you that have been following my blog (jaelaaahh... sok beutt), I want to resume my last post about "the process" for me finally getting the school.
Well first of all, now I'm at the point of counting days. Too lazy to think about the packing, what to bring, what to manage before I leave (gahh!). I just came back from US embassy, got my Visa approved (tho it is still in the process). But I've just also booked my ticket :|
*Mudah2an beneran dapeett yee visanya bo*
FYI bukan e mau mamer tapi tiketnya mehoonngggg gilaaaaa x((((
It was $1500 for one way to Denver from Jakarta, so kalo diitung 13200x1500, hampir 20 jeti aja buat tiket :(
*nunggu THR dateng*
Well I have asked some friends and colleagues, and yes they told me that usually tickets are not covered. Jadi yasudahlahyaa... *ikhlasinn*
Anyway busway, the last time I was babbling about how I finally came to decide to apply for the school because one of my colleague really encouraged me to do.
So the next thing I did was sending out an email to the professor. I figure that the explanation about this will be somehow quite long, so I will do it more systematically:
1. How do I know which professor should I be contacting?
*) I always knew I wanted to go to CSM. I want to do Geophysics. Some of friends and colleagues I knew, graduated from there. And there is one name that I kept hearing, the name of the professor with the research program which I'm really interested in. Let say the Prof's name is Tom (well it IS his name). Tom is the director of one of the research programs in CSM. (note that in one department, there are several research programs, you can gain the information from the school homepage). So Prof Tom is the one who decide which applicants are eligible to get admitted to the program. He is also the one who connect with the sponsors (companies who give funding to the school). So in conclusion, he is THE guy.
2. What would you contact him for? What do you want to communicate to him about?
*) Basically, I introduce myself first. My name, which University I graduated from for my bachelor degree, my GPA, my major, how long I have been working, what is my job description, which company, what project I have been working on, what are my accomplishment. I also gave him information about my IELTS and GRE score (so at least he would know if I have a big chance to get admitted or not, if I apply). After that I informed to him that I have done a research on the website about the program, and find it really suitable to my background and my work experience. So giving several reasons why I'm really interested in that particular fields, I ask the chance to apply to the program. And also the opportunity to get funded for the program.
The response from the Prof would vary, of course. But in my case, the Prof was responding in a really positive way. He then told me that it would approximately be a 2-year program for masters and that the possibility to get funded is high. So THAT became my first motivation to really apply through the school system.
3. What did you do next?
*) I just applied to the school through the website and follow all the instructions. The most important part that we have to provide basically are:
- GRE score
- IELTS score
- CV/Resume
- Motivation letter
- Recommendation letters
For me the most struggling part was the recommendation. Because it has to come from the recommender directly (sent from their email address). So I had to remind them all the time, while also make sure I did it in a very nice way. Plus keep in mind that this part is extremely important. So make sure the person is someone who really knows your job or your educational experience. In my case, I asked 2 people from the company I'm working on (both are managers position) and 2 are from my previous university (the dean of faculty and the professor that advising my undergraduate thesis).
The process took approximately 2 months to get the answer whether I'm admitted or not. It was 2 months since I completed all my application and credentials.
The important part is, after I finished submitting all through the system, I emailed the Professor again to confirm that. Why? So when they have the committee meeting with the department's staffs, he would remember. Well it's better to do more than less. Plus there are maybe a lot of other applicants, so it would be good to have someone knowing which one are you among the others.
It was a quite hard time to wait for the decision tho, lol, because I was very anxious whether I got it or not. Whether I got all credentials submitted or not..
But anyways, as all of us know already, no pain no gain ;)
I'll get back to you on the next post...
Well first of all, now I'm at the point of counting days. Too lazy to think about the packing, what to bring, what to manage before I leave (gahh!). I just came back from US embassy, got my Visa approved (tho it is still in the process). But I've just also booked my ticket :|
*Mudah2an beneran dapeett yee visanya bo*
FYI bukan e mau mamer tapi tiketnya mehoonngggg gilaaaaa x((((
It was $1500 for one way to Denver from Jakarta, so kalo diitung 13200x1500, hampir 20 jeti aja buat tiket :(
*nunggu THR dateng*
Well I have asked some friends and colleagues, and yes they told me that usually tickets are not covered. Jadi yasudahlahyaa... *ikhlasinn*
Anyway busway, the last time I was babbling about how I finally came to decide to apply for the school because one of my colleague really encouraged me to do.
So the next thing I did was sending out an email to the professor. I figure that the explanation about this will be somehow quite long, so I will do it more systematically:
1. How do I know which professor should I be contacting?
*) I always knew I wanted to go to CSM. I want to do Geophysics. Some of friends and colleagues I knew, graduated from there. And there is one name that I kept hearing, the name of the professor with the research program which I'm really interested in. Let say the Prof's name is Tom (well it IS his name). Tom is the director of one of the research programs in CSM. (note that in one department, there are several research programs, you can gain the information from the school homepage). So Prof Tom is the one who decide which applicants are eligible to get admitted to the program. He is also the one who connect with the sponsors (companies who give funding to the school). So in conclusion, he is THE guy.
2. What would you contact him for? What do you want to communicate to him about?
*) Basically, I introduce myself first. My name, which University I graduated from for my bachelor degree, my GPA, my major, how long I have been working, what is my job description, which company, what project I have been working on, what are my accomplishment. I also gave him information about my IELTS and GRE score (so at least he would know if I have a big chance to get admitted or not, if I apply). After that I informed to him that I have done a research on the website about the program, and find it really suitable to my background and my work experience. So giving several reasons why I'm really interested in that particular fields, I ask the chance to apply to the program. And also the opportunity to get funded for the program.
The response from the Prof would vary, of course. But in my case, the Prof was responding in a really positive way. He then told me that it would approximately be a 2-year program for masters and that the possibility to get funded is high. So THAT became my first motivation to really apply through the school system.
3. What did you do next?
*) I just applied to the school through the website and follow all the instructions. The most important part that we have to provide basically are:
- GRE score
- IELTS score
- CV/Resume
- Motivation letter
- Recommendation letters
For me the most struggling part was the recommendation. Because it has to come from the recommender directly (sent from their email address). So I had to remind them all the time, while also make sure I did it in a very nice way. Plus keep in mind that this part is extremely important. So make sure the person is someone who really knows your job or your educational experience. In my case, I asked 2 people from the company I'm working on (both are managers position) and 2 are from my previous university (the dean of faculty and the professor that advising my undergraduate thesis).
The process took approximately 2 months to get the answer whether I'm admitted or not. It was 2 months since I completed all my application and credentials.
The important part is, after I finished submitting all through the system, I emailed the Professor again to confirm that. Why? So when they have the committee meeting with the department's staffs, he would remember. Well it's better to do more than less. Plus there are maybe a lot of other applicants, so it would be good to have someone knowing which one are you among the others.
It was a quite hard time to wait for the decision tho, lol, because I was very anxious whether I got it or not. Whether I got all credentials submitted or not..
But anyways, as all of us know already, no pain no gain ;)
I'll get back to you on the next post...
Monday, April 27, 2015
Quarter Life Crisis
Not sure if I've ever written bout this before..
Maybe I did.
But anyways, nowadays I have been more galau than usual.
(kapan sih lo nggak?)
It is the point when you start to think,
Have I done what I really have to do at this point?
Have I achieved things I should be achieving?
Am I successful enough compare to my peers? Friends?
Am I happy with all of these? Or do I secretly want different path of life?
Say I'm happy and satisfied at this moment, then, what's next?
Am I gonna be constantly satisfied, or will I always crave for something new? Something out of ordinary?
When am I gonna stop and just enjoy the moment?
Not looking at others' and comparing?
Life is a competition, whether you like it or not.
People will always standardized their life based on others'.
Other's success, life, achievement, so on, so on.
How much money do u make?
What do you have? House? Car? Apartment? Other kind of investments?
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Married? Have kids? Are your kids smart and competitive? What have they achieved?
Where did you get your degree? What degree? Where do you work? What is your position?
Have you traveled abroad? Which continent? Which country?
Are you attractive? What brand do you wear?
and the list is still on going....
Sometimes we just have to stop and enjoy, and be grateful.
That's why it is always good to look around those who are less fortunate than us, not to make us feel better (or maybe yes), but to remember to say thanks.
And afterall, it is just life.
Maybe I did.
But anyways, nowadays I have been more galau than usual.
(kapan sih lo nggak?)
It is the point when you start to think,
Have I done what I really have to do at this point?
Have I achieved things I should be achieving?
Am I successful enough compare to my peers? Friends?
Am I happy with all of these? Or do I secretly want different path of life?
Say I'm happy and satisfied at this moment, then, what's next?
Am I gonna be constantly satisfied, or will I always crave for something new? Something out of ordinary?
When am I gonna stop and just enjoy the moment?
Not looking at others' and comparing?
Life is a competition, whether you like it or not.
People will always standardized their life based on others'.
Other's success, life, achievement, so on, so on.
How much money do u make?
What do you have? House? Car? Apartment? Other kind of investments?
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Married? Have kids? Are your kids smart and competitive? What have they achieved?
Where did you get your degree? What degree? Where do you work? What is your position?
Have you traveled abroad? Which continent? Which country?
Are you attractive? What brand do you wear?
and the list is still on going....
Sometimes we just have to stop and enjoy, and be grateful.
That's why it is always good to look around those who are less fortunate than us, not to make us feel better (or maybe yes), but to remember to say thanks.
And afterall, it is just life.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Untitled
It has been quite a while since the last time I wrote.
But yea the last few weeks I had been very very very busy.
But now that the project has been finished, I'm just becoming as jobless as I could ever be.
Jobless and galau.
Why galau? Cos I haven't applied for my US visa yet, and this thing is now kinda bothering me a little.
Actually there is no big problem, it is just that I have to change my full name on the student record, which then affecting my student account, my I-20 form, hence affecting the timing for me to apply my visa.
Well it is still end of April, and I should be there at least mid August. Let me see.. it is still about more than 3 months, so I should be OK.
I'm just anxious,
nervous,
etc what you would like to call it.
I'm just afraid that somehow I would jeopardize the whole planning.
Anyway.
Despite those anxiety, I've been good.
Pretty excited for the whole thing. Have been eating a lot (I don't know why exactly), but most people would say, "enjoy that now, for you won't find smthing like that while you're there".
Well noted.
I have been training myself before I leave, by washing most of my clothes, cleaning out my apartment, even clean out my bathroom every week now.
I have also been thinking, probably I should learn how to cook some of my favourite dishes.
Hmm... we'll see.
Sometimes I wonder whether I'm a lazy person or the opposite.
Cos when it comes to something I really want, I would do everything. Even the hard way to achieve it.
But sometimes for something small that I need to take care of, I would wait for as long as it can take to finish that.
Oh well..
Talking bout smthing else lately, I have been avoiding some friends of mine. Let's call them "the party friends".
While I had enjoyed spending time with them, lately (or well.. maybe around 2 mths ago already) I realized that I don't want to be involved too deep into their life anymore.
I found it too... wrong.
Everything.
While some wise people would say, well. you can hang out with em without trying to be like them.
True.
But, the more you spend time with them, the more you will think (either you realize it or not) that their "behaviour" is somehow normal.
Which, believe me, it should not be called normal.
Ah.. anyways, after I tried to stay away from them for the last 2 months, I feel healthier.
Physically and mentally.
I wouldn't say I despise em of course. It's just, I don't want to know too deep, too detail, of every wrong things they do.
OK,
I thing that's all my "unek2" for today :)
Thanks for enjoying it.
*halah*
But yea the last few weeks I had been very very very busy.
But now that the project has been finished, I'm just becoming as jobless as I could ever be.
Jobless and galau.
Why galau? Cos I haven't applied for my US visa yet, and this thing is now kinda bothering me a little.
Actually there is no big problem, it is just that I have to change my full name on the student record, which then affecting my student account, my I-20 form, hence affecting the timing for me to apply my visa.
Well it is still end of April, and I should be there at least mid August. Let me see.. it is still about more than 3 months, so I should be OK.
I'm just anxious,
nervous,
etc what you would like to call it.
I'm just afraid that somehow I would jeopardize the whole planning.
Anyway.
Despite those anxiety, I've been good.
Pretty excited for the whole thing. Have been eating a lot (I don't know why exactly), but most people would say, "enjoy that now, for you won't find smthing like that while you're there".
Well noted.
I have been training myself before I leave, by washing most of my clothes, cleaning out my apartment, even clean out my bathroom every week now.
I have also been thinking, probably I should learn how to cook some of my favourite dishes.
Hmm... we'll see.
Sometimes I wonder whether I'm a lazy person or the opposite.
Cos when it comes to something I really want, I would do everything. Even the hard way to achieve it.
But sometimes for something small that I need to take care of, I would wait for as long as it can take to finish that.
Oh well..
Talking bout smthing else lately, I have been avoiding some friends of mine. Let's call them "the party friends".
While I had enjoyed spending time with them, lately (or well.. maybe around 2 mths ago already) I realized that I don't want to be involved too deep into their life anymore.
I found it too... wrong.
Everything.
While some wise people would say, well. you can hang out with em without trying to be like them.
True.
But, the more you spend time with them, the more you will think (either you realize it or not) that their "behaviour" is somehow normal.
Which, believe me, it should not be called normal.
Ah.. anyways, after I tried to stay away from them for the last 2 months, I feel healthier.
Physically and mentally.
I wouldn't say I despise em of course. It's just, I don't want to know too deep, too detail, of every wrong things they do.
OK,
I thing that's all my "unek2" for today :)
Thanks for enjoying it.
*halah*
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