Nervous

I think I'm having the "cold feet" moment now.
Not until the point where I'm backing out of course (duh! backing out? This had been my dream for so long).
But just to imagine I'm going to experience a totally different environment, I'm sooooo frickiinnnggg nervous!
It just happened suddenly. I'm thinking about, how am I going to live there, thousand miles from my home country, 12-13 hrs difference, without my regular salary like in here.
I mean I will get the salary from the professor, but not as much as I make here.

I know the next thing I'm going to talk about, may sound "ugh", but this is the truth.
I'm anxious about, the availability of several things.
Like...
saloon?

I will miss the time when I can get manicure and pedicure for only +/-USD10.
Waxing for only USD8-10
Massage for about the same price.

I will miss nasi padang.

Arghh!

I know it now sounds like I'm an ungrateful b*atch.

Pardon my language