A Hundred to Zero

This post is dedicated to this person. It's not like he is gonna read my blog, though. LOL.
Anyways, it is pretty funny how I used to be soooo into that person, that I did some stupid things in the past. He was never my BF, though. Just a friend that "kinda" escalated into a "lover". Never a serious one, as I mentioned also in the past.

If you asked me now, I would say, man I have zero feelings for that guy. Oh well maybe 5 out of 100. And that's just for the sake of the past, and also I would probably be sad if something bad happened to him cos we used to be friends, too.

I remember there were stupid moments when I really almost begged him to meet me, I bought something that he asked me to (like some merchandise of a band that he loves) and he actually planned not to pay me for that, I think. What a douche. But I did that, because I was really into him. Luckily, though, I suddenly realized that before I gave those things to him. So I didn't end up giving it to him although I have bought it. HAHA! There were a t-shirt and a lighter. I gave the t-shirt to my current BF (although I never really saw him wearing that, eventually) and I still have the lighter with me. It is actually a pretty cool lighter (zippo). So maybe I'll keep it and see if I meet someone that really would like to have it.

Anywaaay... again, it is just funny to me that a hundred can be a zero, in such an abrupt time. I remember I suddenly decided not to talk to him sometime in March when I was starting to really love my current BF. Then, right after that, I realized that I was so dumb to even relate to the "douche". But I just had so many experiences with douches in the past, maybe that's not really a surprise anymore.

Now that I stopped all communication with the douche (not because I hate him or holding a grudge, but because he has been trying to annoy me non-stop), he became a bit "crazily annoying". I had to block him from my cellphone, my whatsapp, skype etc just because he would try all the ways. Crazy. Oh BTW, if you're wondering why he's not worth it, well.. he is not. There were so many times in the past that he didn't treat me well. I would probably not elaborate it here.

Anywaaay... that's just how feelings work, I guess. Hopefully it only works for those who don't treat me well, and I will keep on loving those who really worth it!