Hari ini saya mencoba sebisa mungkin ngga mainan HP se-intens biasanya.
Rasanya? SUSAAAAHHHH!
Rasanya semacam lagi sakaw gitu *kayak tau aja rasanya*. Kayak yang ngomong ke diri sendiri,"udah... fokus aja ke sekitaran lo. Toh apa sih yang mau lo check2in di dunia maya? Banyak orang ngga update sama dunia maya juga masih idup kok".
Tapiiih.. tetep aja KEPO. Siapa lagi update status apa. Siapa ngemessage-in gw. Grup WA lagi pada ngomongin apa. Path. Facebook. Dstt....
Itu ga bagus sih. Kayaknya 3-4 taunan lalu ngga separah sekarang-sekarang ini. Dulu ya megang HP cuma buat SMSan. Megang terus juga sih ujung2nya.. Tapi seenggaknya tujuannya cuma 1. Kalo sekarang? Kalo bisa b*ker pun bawa HP!
Skitar sebulanan lalu saya hampir keilangan HP. Itu rasanya? Maakkk... Kayak kehilangan belahan jiwa :( *lebey sangat*
Gimana ngga? Saya bobo sama dia, makan, kerja, ke WC, kalo bisa mandi juga, tapi takut dia korslet aja sih jadinya ngga dibawa masuk.
Saya panik, telpon kanan kiri, message kanan kiri pake HP mama. Bolak balik cek HP mama sapa tau ada yang membalas dengan jawaban "Iya HP lo di gw kok".
Yang mana memang pada akhirannya ada yang bales SMS kayak gitu sih. Ituuu... leganya luarrr biasaaa....!!!
Setengah harian saya galau maksimum. Diajak ngobrol ngga fokus. Kayak abis diputusin pacar.
Pas udah ada kabar kalo HP itu di tangan temen, dunia terasa lebih indah :)
Itu yang kini saya sadari, ini udah ngga bener lagi sih. Kok ya kita bisa-bisanya termakan perkembangan teknologi informasi yang melejit sangat amat cepat, sampai-sampai kita dikontrol olehnya? Coba bayangin berapa cepat informasi itu mengalir dari 1 orang ke orang lain walaupun jaraknya sangat jauh sekalipun?
Which is ada bagusnya sih ya.... Tapi saya mau nyoba aja deh. Bisa ngga sih ngga tergantung sama benda 1 bernama "cellphone" itu tadi?
Bisa ngga sih saya lebih fokus sama keadaan sekitar saya ajah?
Mari kita buktikan :)
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Thursday, November 20, 2014
20 Nov 2014
Something I wouldn't regret.
No matter how the future will be,
May not be the best thing to do. But I'm happy and relieved it's done :)
No matter how the future will be,
May not be the best thing to do. But I'm happy and relieved it's done :)
Friday, November 14, 2014
Answer that leads to a question
So couple days ago I couldn't wait anymore.
After 2 months passed by since the last time he told me, "I'm going to explain to you, face to face", I just basically on the edge of my patience.
So I told him.
You have been taking your time.
I am not irrationally impatient.
and I have never done anything bad to you.
(SO JUST TELL ME, NOW!)
Can I call you?
OK
Phone call was about 40 minutes. That can be our longest record. Usually 10 mins tops.
The answer is something I knew already, but I just didn't know it was that serious. And that was the main reason he was just out of radar.
It led to another question, which now pointed to me
Will you be OK with that in the long run?
I don't know
You don't have to answer that now. And I won't judge you whatever your answer will be.
The logic answer would be a "NO",
But then of course, when was I ever being logical?
After 2 months passed by since the last time he told me, "I'm going to explain to you, face to face", I just basically on the edge of my patience.
So I told him.
You have been taking your time.
I am not irrationally impatient.
and I have never done anything bad to you.
(SO JUST TELL ME, NOW!)
Can I call you?
OK
Phone call was about 40 minutes. That can be our longest record. Usually 10 mins tops.
The answer is something I knew already, but I just didn't know it was that serious. And that was the main reason he was just out of radar.
It led to another question, which now pointed to me
Will you be OK with that in the long run?
I don't know
You don't have to answer that now. And I won't judge you whatever your answer will be.
The logic answer would be a "NO",
But then of course, when was I ever being logical?
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
PENGEN
- GoPro
- Iphone 6
- Mask + Fin + Wetsuit
- Ke Europe
- Dive Comp
Udah itu aja, ga banyak kok :p
*yakale gw boker duit*
- Iphone 6
- Mask + Fin + Wetsuit
- Ke Europe
- Dive Comp
Udah itu aja, ga banyak kok :p
*yakale gw boker duit*
Just got back from holiday...
cukup lama ninggalin blog ini karna suatu dan lain hal, sibuk ini itu.. sibuk training, sibuk liburan :p
Kemarin ini gw liburan di Lombok dan untuk beberapa saat gw bersyukkkuuuurrr bukan main di saat gw masih bisa duduk santei di pinggir pantei, makan jagung bakar, dengerin musik mendayu-dayu yang cocok banget dengan suasananya, minum, makan, dst.. At that very moment, I just couldn't describe myself. I'm too lucky.
Balik-balik ke Jakarta, karna suatu dan lain sebab pula, hari ini gw galou (hadeeh... abis seneng galou, maunya apa "-__-). Something kinda hurt me in a weird way. Something.
Sesuatu yang awalnya gw anggap ngga penting sama skali, dan gw berusaha menjauh. Tapi akhirnya susah juga lepasnya. Sekarang ada perubahan sedikit, gwnya galau.
It is a pattern, you know? You must have heard something like, "abis gelap terbitlah terang" or "this too shall end". But you do know also, that, "roda itu berputar" kan?
Which means, it scares me more when I'm soooo happy and content one time, cause I know I will be so sad when it ends.
And what is it with me that really want to know the asnwers of everything? For some particular things, maybe you just don't need any answer. Just, let it go.
Dan lalu kegalouan ini ditambah dengan bos yang langsung ngingetin berapa banyak "hutang" kerjaan yang saya tumpuk selama pergi ini.. Hmmm....
I don't want to complain. I'm already too blessed as a person, I know.
Kemarin ini gw liburan di Lombok dan untuk beberapa saat gw bersyukkkuuuurrr bukan main di saat gw masih bisa duduk santei di pinggir pantei, makan jagung bakar, dengerin musik mendayu-dayu yang cocok banget dengan suasananya, minum, makan, dst.. At that very moment, I just couldn't describe myself. I'm too lucky.
Balik-balik ke Jakarta, karna suatu dan lain sebab pula, hari ini gw galou (hadeeh... abis seneng galou, maunya apa "-__-). Something kinda hurt me in a weird way. Something.
Sesuatu yang awalnya gw anggap ngga penting sama skali, dan gw berusaha menjauh. Tapi akhirnya susah juga lepasnya. Sekarang ada perubahan sedikit, gwnya galau.
It is a pattern, you know? You must have heard something like, "abis gelap terbitlah terang" or "this too shall end". But you do know also, that, "roda itu berputar" kan?
Which means, it scares me more when I'm soooo happy and content one time, cause I know I will be so sad when it ends.
And what is it with me that really want to know the asnwers of everything? For some particular things, maybe you just don't need any answer. Just, let it go.
Dan lalu kegalouan ini ditambah dengan bos yang langsung ngingetin berapa banyak "hutang" kerjaan yang saya tumpuk selama pergi ini.. Hmmm....
I don't want to complain. I'm already too blessed as a person, I know.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Changes and answer
I forgot where did I read something like this,
"you can't change people".
Which can be right, can also be totally wrong.
Maybe the better saying would be,
"don't expect to change people, or expect people to change because of you"
Just simply don't expect. But could they change? Absolutely!
In fact, when I observe everywhere, everyone around me, including ME myself, I realized that all of us changed.
Some of the words, the thoughts I wrote in the past, the ones that I said I dislike, I did it eventually.
Contoh lain yang agak simpel,
dulu gue suka banget ama duren. Sekarang? Boro-boro! Sampe si mamah bilang, "dulu pdhal kamu suka... mama dulu hamil kamu makan banyak banget duren" >>mungkin kecewa anak gadisnya telah berubah
Perubahan kayak gitu ga penting2 amat sih, hihi.. But the point is, we change. Which sometimes is hard to accept, don't you think?
What will come across your mind at first: Why? Why people change? Why can't you just stay the same? Why did you break the rules/promises you said?
And then come another answer:
Not all of the things have the answer, you know?
Why people are so eager to find the answer of everything?
Why sky is blue?
Why earth is round?
Why are we alive?
What is the purpose of life?
Why did I get through all of that?
and then we create our own answer, which may not be the answer, but we just like to think THAT is the answer.
Maybe.. sometimes.. it is OK not to get an answer. As simple as that.
"you can't change people".
Which can be right, can also be totally wrong.
Maybe the better saying would be,
"don't expect to change people, or expect people to change because of you"
Just simply don't expect. But could they change? Absolutely!
In fact, when I observe everywhere, everyone around me, including ME myself, I realized that all of us changed.
Some of the words, the thoughts I wrote in the past, the ones that I said I dislike, I did it eventually.
Contoh lain yang agak simpel,
dulu gue suka banget ama duren. Sekarang? Boro-boro! Sampe si mamah bilang, "dulu pdhal kamu suka... mama dulu hamil kamu makan banyak banget duren" >>mungkin kecewa anak gadisnya telah berubah
Perubahan kayak gitu ga penting2 amat sih, hihi.. But the point is, we change. Which sometimes is hard to accept, don't you think?
What will come across your mind at first: Why? Why people change? Why can't you just stay the same? Why did you break the rules/promises you said?
And then come another answer:
Not all of the things have the answer, you know?
Why people are so eager to find the answer of everything?
Why sky is blue?
Why earth is round?
Why are we alive?
What is the purpose of life?
Why did I get through all of that?
and then we create our own answer, which may not be the answer, but we just like to think THAT is the answer.
Maybe.. sometimes.. it is OK not to get an answer. As simple as that.
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Pleasing Everyone
One moment I was thinking..
Part of growing up is, realizing that you become more aware about something you did not care about at all previously (social, economic, politic maybe) and care less about something that you actually don't need to think about. But maybe you did, in the past.
I came also to the point that it is totally OK not to please everyone, it is OK to have someone disliking you, or maybe even hating you.
Why bother thinking about them anyway? If you have others (which I assume would be in a larger number of people) that love you just the way you are. And they won't be irritated by a simple thing you do.
I maybe am not at that point quite yet, but I um, tutor myself into that.
Part of growing up is also, try to simplify as many things as possible, enjoy what things you really do enjoy instead of doing things you think people might think that's cool.
I think what I'm trying to say is that,
love yourself more,
cherish it,
respect it.
Why do I add the "respect" formula into it?
Cause I realized also, that if you only love yourself so much and want to please yourself everytime you have a chance, without "respecting it", you will find later yourself doing things out of the boundary.
That happens a lot to people, you know.
People who starts to behave "this is MY way not yours" but then, look at them and think, do they have any respects to theirselves? I don't think so.
That's just, I can say, a totally selfish behaviour in such a short-time temptation *apadeh sel bahasa lo kedaleman keknya*
Itu aja sih,
mau nggacor lebih banyak lagi tapi ntar jadi kemana mana :D
Part of growing up is, realizing that you become more aware about something you did not care about at all previously (social, economic, politic maybe) and care less about something that you actually don't need to think about. But maybe you did, in the past.
I came also to the point that it is totally OK not to please everyone, it is OK to have someone disliking you, or maybe even hating you.
Why bother thinking about them anyway? If you have others (which I assume would be in a larger number of people) that love you just the way you are. And they won't be irritated by a simple thing you do.
I maybe am not at that point quite yet, but I um, tutor myself into that.
Part of growing up is also, try to simplify as many things as possible, enjoy what things you really do enjoy instead of doing things you think people might think that's cool.
I think what I'm trying to say is that,
love yourself more,
cherish it,
respect it.
Why do I add the "respect" formula into it?
Cause I realized also, that if you only love yourself so much and want to please yourself everytime you have a chance, without "respecting it", you will find later yourself doing things out of the boundary.
That happens a lot to people, you know.
People who starts to behave "this is MY way not yours" but then, look at them and think, do they have any respects to theirselves? I don't think so.
That's just, I can say, a totally selfish behaviour in such a short-time temptation *apadeh sel bahasa lo kedaleman keknya*
Itu aja sih,
mau nggacor lebih banyak lagi tapi ntar jadi kemana mana :D
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