So we are breaking up. Not officially at this point when I'm typing, but it is looking very real now. Not surprising, huh? When have I ever had a relationship that reached 2 years period at least? Sadly it is all my fault. Why did I even prolong it until this point if it was pretty "clear" it would never work out. We love each other and all, but apparently we are WAY TOO DIFFERENT to be okay with each other. I didn't know it was that big. I thought he could adjust to my normality, if you can call so. Maybe I was attracted to his abnormality to begin with? I think that's the case. So again, whose fault is it? ME.
It was not an emotional decision, although yes I'm the most emotional one in this case. Emotionally I tried to keep this relationship. Pretty stupid, cause it will again never work out. It will work out probably in my dream. I thought he could change, for me. Silly? Naive thoughts? Everybody always thought they can change someone cos they are SO SPECIAL. Well, not me chica.
Nothing can console me at this point, no one either. Somehow I am relieved I didn't get the PhD, something I really didn't really want to do anyway.
But then I'm thinking, gosh, WHY?!
WHY AGAIN!?
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