This (Silly) Morning

S: Babe
H: Yes. Pagi
S: Pagi. U didn't reply my txt
H: Don't be mad. In-intentional.
     Un-intentional. Damn the autocorrect
S: So how was it
H: Fun. I need nights like this. Guys night. Lol
S: Glad u had fun. So did u have enough sleep?
.....
(10 min...)
.....
(20 min...)
..... *telpon ngga ya.. biasanya jam segini udah berangkat
..... *ah ntar aja deh, 5 menit lagi.. ato 10 menit lagi...
(10 min...)
..... (akhirnya nelpon juga... no answer...)
..... (nyampe kantor, blom ada balesan. Buka whatsapp, orangnya online)

S: Yoohoo
H: Hi
S: Can I call
..... (blom dijawab langsung nelpon lagi.... no answer... pikiran udah kmana2, ini knapa ngga diangkat, jangan2 kmaren pas kumpul sama temen2 cowo trus jd males ma gue.. mungkin sebel dimesej mulu.. sebel ditelp mulu.. dst..dst..dst...)

S: Alright
    R u that busy to pick up the phone
H: No. But u called at the wrong time

(riing...ring..akhirnya dia nelpon balik)
H: I was running late.. and I was scrambeled "should I pick up now, should I not" cause one time u called I was putting on my shoes. And I started scrambeled "man..what is she thinking now"
S: Cause u didnt reply since last night! and I was like..OK.. but this morning also u didnt reply
H: U said ur home, and I said "cool", what else? did u say anything else
S: Yea I said "r u having fun"
H: Well..Way to start the Monday
S: (laughing) Sorry..
H: No worries.. well.. will see u later today
S: this is so funny.. OK then

(click..)

On whatsapp Text
S: Lol. I feel silly now
H: Don't
S: Really do. Anyway enjoy ur day
H: Just wanted to let u know that I was not ignoring u. Or anything else :)
    I was not trying to make u feel silly.
    Don't
    Please don't
    Then I'll feel awful
S: Ahaha.. OK :) I really have to practice more on this. Lol



So that's my silly morning. Man... I'm so embarrassed.. 4 fricking months and I still don't trust him. Maybe I'm just always this crazy. Crap *getok jidat sndiri

Note to Myself

Pernah denger dari seseorang klo sebenernya segala permasalahan yang ada di hidup kita itu, kita tau jawabannya. Tapi teteeep curhat ke orang untuk "mencari" jawaban.

Makanya pernah ngerasa kan, "kok kalo gw ngasi jawaban atas permasalahan orang. gw jadi ngerasa expert banget ya?!

Oleh karena saya ini adalah orang yang dikit2 galau dan "seeking for reassurance", saya mau nitip beberapa catatan untuk DIRI SAYA sendiri ;p

1. Patience is number one
2. Be happy without any dependency to others. No one responsible for your happiness but yourself
3. Take things SLOW. Do you see any "too much" people who end up well? They all screwed it at the end!
4. Believe in yourself. Without TRUST, all of those things are useless.I repeat, USELESS
5. If it's meant to be, it will. Let it work naturally, don't push it.
6. You'll do it extremely well when you do all of those things above.  ;)

Am I crazy for doing this? LOL. I supposed so.

Resolusi? Anyone?

Udah ampir tengah Januari dan baru mau nulis resolusi? Apaah?

Hemm.. Jadi setelah saya pikir2, saya gamau resolusi macem2 yang nantinya ngga kesampean.. Jadinya, kira2 "bayangan"nya aja mau kayak gimana *ya apa bedanya

Kira-kira saya mikir taun 2013 ini saya HARUS dan WAJIB belajar 1 bahasa lagi slain Inggris. Awalnya sih mikir mo blajar Spanish karna keknya gampang. Tapi oh tapi, mengingat si doski bisa bahasa Prancis, dan saya takut nantinya dia ngomongin saya di blakang pake Frongseh, jadi keknya saya blajar bhs Prancis aja deh. Bihihi.. Lagian romantis gitu ngga sih kalo kita mo ngomong private trus switch ke Prancis (mnurut lo aja keknya Shel)

Intinya sih saya pengen bisa bahasa lain. Inggris keknya udah biasa. *tsah

Resolusi lain, eh.. Bayangan lain maksudnya, saya pengen mikirin rencana s2 saya lagi (cuma sampe tahap mikirin). Ini gara2 beberapa orang masih suka nanyain, yang membuat saya terbata2 menjawabnya. Haduh gatau deh..

Lalu lalu.. mo apalagi ya.. Terus terang nih akhir2 ini saya kok ngga seberapa "eager" dengan karir saya ya.. Ini gawat kayaknya sih. Kalo kata orang "once lo udah punya bayi, lo bakal ngga sgitu ambisinya sama karir lo"
Nah ini gw belom punya bayi kok. Suami juga belom. "Baru" punya pacar doank udah ngga semangat kerja gini. Ckck payahnya T_T

Well.. kalo taun ini juga saya ga semangat2 amat ngerencanain liburan kayak taun lalu. Masalahnya, kapan nabungnya buu? Ada rencana liburan kecil2an sama si dia. Tapi entahlah.. Gamau banyak berharap trus ntar ga jadi *pdhal tetep ngarep banget

Apalagi ya resolusi lainnya? Kok feeling saya 2013 ini bakal jadi tahun yang sulit yah. Hehehe,, smoga sgalanya lancar :') Semoga