Updates on June

While I'm writing this, this is the first day of Ramadhan, the first day where there's no food around the office like usual (biasanya tiap menit adaaa aja makanan ini dan itu). The first day we gonna suffer from even worse traffic (biasanya udah parah, well.. double that).

And it is less than 2 months for me to leave for Colorado.

It will feel less than that even, maybe, since after Ramadhan people will mudik for +- 2weeks (including me actually). So by the time I came back from vacation, I will take another weekend gateaway to do my farewell dive, and one week space to do farewell to friends (mainly the office friends), and then.. buhbye :)

By now I almost completed everything. Last night I just made sure that the last important document (which is my health and immunization record) has been received by the school. Quite a funny experience for me. So I emailed the school asking whether they have received my document and they didn't reply. It was suggested on the website that I call their number and they will be available most of the time.

Well remembering the time zone difference, I planned to call at 9pm or later, and I checked on telkomsel, how much does the international cost, etc.
So apparently telkomsel has a good deal. It is Rp 3500/10 minutes. I bought the first 10 min only to think later that I'm afraid 10min won't be enough. So I bought another 10min of call credit.

I rang the health officer:
O: CSM health and blablabla (I forgot), this is Denise speaking

me: Hi Denise, I'm an international student from Indonesia. I just sent my document on 15th of June and I want to make sure that it has been received

O: what is your student number?

me: it is xxxxxxxxxx

O: and your last name?

me: harryandi. H, A, R, R, Y, A, N, D, I

O: OK it's received. Thanks Sheila

me: Oh OK thank you

(tut tut tut....)

one minute only :|

what a waste, buying 20 minutes of international call credit! LOL

I guess I'm just very used to the complicated-ness of Indonesian people.

So anyway, right now I'm just thinking how bad I wanna get out of this city (remembering the traffic nightmare - Oh- I had enough of it!)
And some small group of people (I wrote about this before, yea that party friends of mine) just made me wanna move earlier than ever.

But of course there are more people that I will leave that I really care about as much as they care about me. Sigh. Hopefully I won't cry on my farewell day! Hahaha...

Aannnd, I conclude that I will bring more food than clothes! Afterall that would be my biggest struggle there :(

Some conversation

I talked to this friend of mine, at work. He's been one of the most supportive friends so far. He always asked me bout my updates, am I doing well, etc. Sometimes he's more like a father at work. LOL

Anyways, I asked him last time

"why do you always look happy? It looks as if you don't have any problem in your life"
"of course I do. But I always think of the future. And what I do now will affect my future. That's what I'm focusing on. There's nothing I can change of my past, it's over. And many people are still stuck in their past"
"umm.. yea that's true"
"People do mistakes. But that's how they learn. You cannot do exactly the same things, and expect different outcomes."

Nice words, fella. Nice words.

Double Standard

Last night I was thinking bout this topic. No no, it's not about feminism. But it's more about our personal double standard.
Like, when someone did something not nice, you will despise them. But then one day you found yourself, did EXACTLY the same thing. How do you feel about that?

I feel I kinda make justification bout what I did. Yep. So you know now, when in life you kinda question people , "WHY? WHY? Don't they have heart? " you know what is the answer. Cos basically we are human. We do what we want to do. Of course, some of us have stronger boundaries or principal more than the others. But yea that's the main point.

So what you should do when someone do bad things to you? Just be calm and think "oh well that's human. And this is life" ?
A friend of mine just said something like, "well you can't guarantee someone wouldn't change. I think the answer will be, deal with the pain"

I said, "you are totally right".
We can only put so much effort, and be prepared for anything out of our plan.
It will be sucks, of course. But, well, isn't that life?

I will put one quote from the movie I watched recently,
"I'd been let down in my life so many times. Why should I have gotten my hopes up, right?"