New Things

I think I have written several times how I miss my old life back in Jakarta, how homesick I am here etc.
I've talked to some people and they said it is normal. Of course you will experience such things. But then now I'm thinking, this is actually fun, no?
Experiencing new things, far away from something you used to do or be with. There are several things change in me also, I notice:
1. I become less and less picky bout food. You know back in Indo I was soooo madly in love with food. Sometimes I lost control where I started to gain a lot of weight and ended up having to do a strict diet! But now I am sooo much different I think , haha! well there is nothing I can do, basically. I eat whatever I can eat, whatever provided to me. Sandwich, pizza, anything. As long as I don't feel hungry. And the basic reason is because I'm saving my money. I don't have too much money to live here to be honest. Plus there is a lot of things need to be taken care of, such as car, etc.
Anyway, so yea, even instant noodle, the thing I rareelly ate in Indo, I could eat that about 3 times a week. But not always like that sih, sometimes I would treat myself during weekend or when I feel really in a bad mood.

2. I think somehow I become more self independent? I clean things at home, I took care of things by myself, like when I was taking care of my new car, I had to go back and forth to the government office by bus and walking several times. It wasn't easy for me. Haha.. But I did that eventually.

3. I'm really serious bout my grades in here. Hence I always try to attend every classes on time and do my homework on time as well. What is the point of coming here and study but then failed? It won't be funny, at all.

I think 1.5 months only have changed me about that much, will see later if I change (hopefully in a better way) after some time.

:)

Challenge or Comfort?

I guess human has issues. And one of the biggest issue is, we are never satisfied.
I think that kinda applies to me. When I was still in undergrad school, all I want was get a job. Once I got a job, I want to go back to school again, in another country (preferably U.S). And now, once I got into the school, I want to go back to the place I was once belong to!

I do miss my friends,
colleagues,
family,
colleagues. Did I mention that already? LOL. But yea, surprisingly I miss my colleagues at work, the MOST.
Cos they are people I got to see every single day for last past 4.5years. Since early in the morning until time to go home.
Well I have to admit, even though that time was the most comfortable moment of my life, there were couple of times I wasn't happy. Why? Cos I don't know what is next? Or maybe, I know TOO damn well what would happen next. I wake up, go to the office, work with those people, and repeat the same routine until I realize, I'm OLD already!

Now that reminds me why I came to US at first place. I was looking for new things. For challenges. And now once I face the challenge, I'm scared!

I think all I need to do is to remind myself everyday, what was my purpose at the beginning. And keep enjoying the moment, cos what's the point of living life, hoping for something different?

Cherish the moment, get to know more about the life, the world. Keep in having faith!!!

Homesick Akut!!!

Kayaknya kemaren2 benciiii banget ama Jakarta ampe sering banget ngelus dada bergumam "udah lah yaa...bentar lagi gue cabut ke Amrik. Say goodbye to all this shit.."

And you know what, Ive been crying these past few days!!! Homesick! LOL
I know it is only a month or so now, it is just the adjustment. And people have warned me before, FOCUS! It is only 2 years! Time will run fast you wont realized it.

Pertama yang bkin homesick itu... Gada mobil! Gw jalan tiap hari rumah-kampus-rumah. Kadang kalo lagi panas ya panas banget (ampe udah pasrah ni muka ntar jadi kek apa jadinya), pernah 1 kali tuh ujan dan gw kira ujannya bakal yang basa basi gitu. Jadi tetep nekatlah jalan cepet ke rumah cuma pake jaket ala kadarnya (jaket gaya, bukan buat ujan atopun dingin) daaannn keujanan kedinginan jalan 2km ke rumah. Trus pengen mewek, tapi ditahan.

Gue d Jakarta nyetir mulu! Ya walopun banyakan stop nya sih. Tapi I feel independent gitu. Disini ya kalo ga jalan, numpang temen, atau naik bus yang kadang datengnya telat, trus jalannya relatif pelan, dan most places masih harus jalan lagi dari bus stopnya.

OK gw akuin gw manja sih makanya kek gini. I just have never felt like this before. Pernah sih waktu baru kuliah d Bandung, tapi itu Bandung doank.. Masi Indo juga.. Jadi not so bad lah. Disini tuh kayak berasa lost aja gitu. Bukan negara sendiri, temen2 ada sih tapi ya yang ga deket2 amat. Belom lah. Palingan cuma share tentang kuliah aja.
Anyway I just bought a car. So hopefully things will be better after. Hopefully.

Kedua yang bikin homesick itu beberapa anak d kampus yang cukup "setan". Haha.. ini nulisnya sambil emosi. Tapi bener deh, kadang ada sih yang baik, tapi banyak juga yang gajelas gitu lho. Kayak ga ramah sama skali. Udah disalamin diajak kenalan, masi aja dingin. Ada juga yang dikiran udah baik nih. Eh, setelah merasa dia ga dapet keuntungan apa-apa, ditinggalin lah kita nih. Bangke ya?

Dannn yang paling terakhir bikin nangis itu, keilangan paspor! Duh gatau lagi deh kenapa bisa tiba2 kena masalah ini. Pas di sini pula. Udah gamau bahas, bikin sakit hati.

But I know I will get through this. I will learn a lot, I will be a stronger person!!!

SEMANGAT!!!