That call...

My phone rang yesterday afternoon,
"No Caller ID"
I was like, who the hell is this?

And there I heard the voice
The familiar voice I'd never heard since last year.. Exactly one year..

I was too afraid to guess
I kept asking
"who is this? who is this? I can't hear you clearly.."
Yet deepdown I was too scared if somehow the phonecall might ended

"it's me.." he said

He wished me happy birthday,

"You must think I forgot your birthday, don't you?
"I just try to minimize my expectation"

He sounded so apologetic.. Sometimes it was just silence.. Keep repeating "I don't expect you to just forget all about it in one night..but I do owe you explanation"

All this time waiting to hear from him, all I really wanted was to punch him on the face. But one single sentence and it all disappeared.

I said, "there's so many things I wanted to talk to you about.. but maybe when I see you.."

The 13-min phone call ended..

Last words were, "take care.."

He texted me saying,
"it was good to hear your voice. I hope you forgive me"

.......

Of course I forgive you. But to put so much trust (again), I won't be too sure..

Remind me how awesome this Birthday was

No big celebration,
No party,
No surprise or whatsoever,
but I'm truly deeply happy inside.
That's enough to call this year birthday as one of the best one.

I came up with an idea to celebrate my birthday by taking my diving license in Bali. I was looking for a friend to go with and finally found my bestfriend since junior high school to come with me. I still consider myself lucky up to this point cause I can still find people to accompany my trip ideas even though everyone has their own schedule, preference, etc, etc.

Anyways, I feel happy and content this time of my life cause for a rare occasion, now I barely have any expectations, yet I got some satisfying moments. Let's say all my loved ones whom I care about, they all wish me all the best wishes. I repeat, the one I care about ;)
I spent these days with people I enjoy to be with and some of them are really really nice. I (again) feel blessed for that.
I did what I wanted to do instead of waiting for someone to do things I expected them to do.

And today, first day I go back to the office, I received messages from old lovers. Wished me the great birthday. Again, it was NOT expected at all. And why now?! I mean, isn't that wonderful? You got nice things when you didn't expect it at all.

That's happiness :)

Anyways, happy 26th birthday to me.. Can't believe I'm 26 already. Still fresh in my mind when mIRC was still IN, I always open the conversation with this line:

i_am_funny : asl pls
i_am_funny : 13 f mlg. u?

LOL yea, the nickname is so labil I can't stand it now :p

can you believe right now I'm 13 years older than that? (twice that age)

I can't...

:)

Trips

July 25-29, Bali
August 6-8, KL
September 1-5, Belitung
October 13-16, Solo
October 27-31, Lombok

How can't I be more excited? x)