Is Love Enough?

I have recently been thinking a lot about this. There's such thing as "Unconditional Love", if you ever heard. Women tend to do it more than men, as what mentioned in "Men from Mars, Women from Venus" book. It's also probably because women tend to use their feeling more than their logic. Maybe.

Lately I've been listing several things that can be a good reason for me NOT to continue this thing right now. But everytime I think about it, I become really sad. *see? even typing about it already makes my eyes blurry in tears. Lol*

The reason I become sad maybe because I already have quite a deep feeling for this one. Well, not that I didn't have the same deep feeling for the previous one. And frankly speaking, I could move on from the last one because of this one.

So. It's kinda sad, no?

I won't write it here, about the very recent REASON that may make me quit. But honestly, it's quite a BIG one. It's not cheating or abuse things, no. It's not that.

Makes me wondering, if it were him who stands in my position, what would he do?

Pretty sure he'd walk away.

So, is Love itself enough for me to hold on?

Lama-Lamaan

Jadi inget suatu pagi saya lagi dengerin radio, waktu penyiar radionya bilang begini, "nikah itu bukan cepet-cepetan, tapi lama-lamaan"

Mak deng.

Sebenernya sih occassionnya ngocol aja saat itu, tapi tetep lumayan "nyampe" juga sih maksudnya. I mean, made sense gitu. Bukan soal marriage aja loh ya.. Tapi juga soal lain misalnya baru jadian ato apa gitu.

Kadang orang ingin menampilkan sisi kehidupannya yang sangat memuaskan, accomplishment, achievement, and everything about good things. But then, they forget what really is the meaning of it. It's not about what to show, but really what is it you're working on.

Maybe that's why some people don't really want to make things go public, so then when it's over, they don't need to hide anything from anyone.

We tend to be eager to show something off when we're proud or happy about it, but then run away and disappear when something bad happens. Or rather be ashamed and make it as quiet as possible.

*)merenung sambil mengangguk ngeliat kejadian serupa yang baru2 ini terjadi di sekitar

Comfy Zone

I think lately I've been too comfortable in my situation right now.
Got salary every month, some bonus, go shopping, and all the routines that I think quite, hmm.. safe, I can say.
Makes me forgetting what my purpose was at the beginning.
I want to go to school!

I remember my first year in this company, I told everyone I'm going to pursue master degree immediately.
Then everytime I told this idea to my parents (especially my dad), he would say, "well it's not easy to be in the state as you are in already. So, think again. Everybody thinks it's a really good achievement"
Well yeah Dad, but that's not what I want!

Actually what makes me realize again about this 'dream', is, because some people questioned about this again to me. I made a lot of excuses such as, well.. I still have to pay my apartment, bla bla bla.. bla bla bla..
In the end, one told me, well it depends on what your intention at first place. Once you already know what you want, you will do anything to make it come true. True.
Hiks.

I think I should really make a move. Start from now. I will take TOEFL and thinking about GRE course. Smangattt!!!